Tuesday, February 14, 2012

My 1st bouquet of roses on Valentine's day ♥

Happy Valentine's Day readers!!! =D

How's your valentine?

i guess,
some must be sweet as they be with their beloved one
celebrating Valentine's day together
some students must be spending Valentine at home with tons of homeworks
some single one must be hanging out with their friends

So..I am going to blog on my Valentine's day
hehe =D
actually i am now Nerd-ing at home with works =(

i spent my day yesterday
it's valentine's eve
and i went out with kok weng, my "Ho Heng Dai"  :)
here's the story ..
 my partner of the day :)
 I was really shock when
This bouquet of roses bumped out in front of me
OMG!! i was so suprised!! >@<
(as i thought he was just simply kidding in the phone LOL)
this was my first bouquet of roses which i received
and it was my first time spending my valentine's day with a boy? huh? =P
issit counted as dating?LOL

later on, we having dinner by the lake at Restuarant Louisiana, Kelana Jaya
The silence of the night
it's pretty windy that night and it dizzy for a while
*it was freaking cold honestly, luckily i brought my blanket with me LOL*
there's quite amount of people dining there 

 The food there are quite nice and the view/ atmosphere are absolutely great
*strongly recommended for couple :) *
non-couple will be expel LOL *kidding*

 after dinner, we off to Loudspeaker :)
as you know, singing and camwhoring are parts of my life :D

 before 10.30pm this guy forced me to get off from my cozy K-room :(
some more let me to drive his car!
lol..it's crazie rite??
*my round face..like a bowl...AWWW* (¬_¬)

(actually is the photographer problem LOL) =P

hehe...its going to be the end of this valentine's post
i hope that the following year i will spend my valentine's day with my "boyfriend " (if i can get one )
or my friends :)

This photo, i purposely asked my brother to capture for me..
haha! as a Memory! =D
i bet this wont be the last bouquet of roses..
if not... ='(
i'll cry die LOL
i wanna "shriek out " a very big THANK YOU to my partner, kok weng 
i was really enjoy with it
Thank you for the dinner
thank you for the roses
thank you for the accompany
and everything, sincerely...
i cant express my feeling using thousand of words
but i know you will understand , my friend :)
this was a amazing night and fantasy dinner!
Thank You again!! =')
i will remember this night and everything

                           No Gossip                        
                      No Rumor . TQ                    

Sunday, February 12, 2012


A random posting
with thousand of words
( i was so shock , because what i blogged about ,its longer than my essay LOL )

Introduction of the story....
An unpleasant feeling
she gave me
on that day we met
and i thought if i did anything wrong?

she was trying to ignore me 
just as i was invisible to her
and i just didnt give a damn about it

but then the feeling really put me through
since we are so close 
the relation is unique and irreplaceable

but i think i was so wrong

"she spent lotsa money like using water ,totally unlimited,
and i think she was taking advantage after the death of her dad,
hanging out with friends almost everyday" she thinks.

oh well...
i have told all
to my mum
and my mum was
"oh...as we cant control people's mind and stop their mouth,
let them do and think what ever the way they want"

it was really unpleasant
so i am here to
i simply grumbled on all what you "think" of

since you are studied in a "air-conditioned school"
live a rosy in a "palace" with comfort
and you dont need to worry and stress about anything
since you can study in a good college with a so so result
go anyway you want
have anything that you want
i do think the number you hang out was hundred times of mine
what an easy life like this?
its like everything was so fine in your life

can you think on behalf of me??
i dont even have a dad
dont live a rosier and easy life like you

even though i got a full scholarship in college but i still need to give up of it
because i'm afraid that my family cant afford my daily expenses
I need to pick up my form 6 studies
and do you think that form 6 is easy as you think?
almost everyday i need to finish up tons of homework and assignments
moreover, i still need to attend for co-curricular class after school
(so that i always back to home about 5pm everyday)
and as you know i am going to have a big exam "STPM" this year
since the last November holiday , i already started to study and revise
i woke up at 4.30 am every morning
(i bet you are still slumbering on your bed)
attend for tuition class by taking train and bus to KL
all the things that i did just to be the best
and get best result
so i can get into best local U
(its all free)

these are all tensions!!
do you think i have so much leisure time to spend at house everyday?

i do need some activities to release my tension
sing k and movies
(and you think that it was too much ??!!)
i spent my own money without asking money from my mum
(yeah..of coz it was my pocket-money
so ?? i rather starved myself at school so that i can spend those money on my leisure time to hang out)
and that's bother you??
i starve myself until i got gastric
and that's bother you again??
my sister is still young and i did bring her to watch movie
and was that wrong??
or i should always stay at home to recap all those unhappy things
suppose to cry at home for days and nights
keep doing my homework like a nerd in room
or you think Teevee and internet are enough to entertain you??
but honestly i still do my job to study and get good result
it didnt bring any effect to my studies
and i didnt change as i was still me
i think before taking any action

i bet you will never know how its feel  if you are in my situation
that's what
I really wondering
if we need to survive in the way of people's think of
follow their track
so they wont judge on us and gossip about you??
why cant we be the way we are?
at least we are happy about it
and that's what life is??

I dont think so!
i need to live a life just to satisfy others..

do what ever you want
blather about what you want

i know you are only showing some caring
i will bear in my mind
and i will try to change
but, please ..just a second to think on behalf of me
in my situation
but not to think in your way of life
because i am not you
i think you will totally insane or burn out
if you live a life like this

yeah...i live on a dependable and poverty life
but who will ever want to own a life like this??
i have no choice
but to live a better and happy live on my own
and i was satisfied with it

Monday, February 6, 2012

Thanks for loving me

"Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end?"

I think most of my friends knew what have happened to me recently
i just broke up with my boyfriend
if you haven get updated with this
you may
"oh..why like that??"
"i'm so shocked"
"what's problem with them?"
"is it serious?"

"She change boyfriend again??"
oh well..i do care if your mind first pop out with this question!
*this question simply mean that i am such a play girl
and who love to fool around with guys*
Please dont ever judge me in this way

if you never know what have happened to us
and what we have been through

If you are simply EX or any other admirer of..
you think i am damn so happy with this decision??HUH?
i tell you, you will never know what's my feeling
please shut your fuck mouth off
and get off from my blog
Never ever try to humiliate me with your stupid thoughts! I am dead serious
well..i am not going to talk about all this..
later on i may  be moody again..

back to the main purpose of writing this post,
thanks all my friends who care about me
I know you guys love me so much :(
i am really so touch when i received those messages and 
some of my friends who consoled me
some calls from my friends
*sob sob*
so happy that i have all of you
i love you guys so much!
I am fine dudes ,no worries :)
i just need time

oh..another sad thing is
"where's my Valentine's day??"
#Forever alone again
no date,no flowers, no presents, no dinner with candles, all romantic scene i watched on drama..>~<


to XD ,
i hope you know why i made this decision
and how tough for me to made this decision

the days we've been through
although we cant meet that often
but so far we have created a lots of happy memories
i will never forget what we have been through these few months

i think this decision is good and fair to you and also "...."

and lastly
i am really happy that we still friends :) 
i am always here for you
..thanks for loving me..
i will remember you whenever i hear this song


ended up this post with this photo =D
lets have a new beginning =)
i am super -Unique